Filling in the blank spots.

Pisau bila lama tak memotong, tumpul. Lantai bila lama tak dimop, berdebu. Blog bila lama tak diupdate, bersawang. Idea bila lama tak dikeluarkan dari kepala, rasa kosong lah. Macam tak ada idea pulak 🙂

Tahun ini terasa sangat panjang dari segi kerjaya. Dua bulan lagi berbaki untuk 2012, dan aku tak sabar nak habiskan sisa-sisa yang tertinggal. Sejujurnya, aku rasa zaman korporat aku sudah terlalu panjang. Sudah sampai masa untuk aku teruskan cita-cita aku untuk menulis dan bergerak sendiri secara bebas. Cukuplah kot, 10 tahun mencari pengalaman bekerja, menimba ilmu pengetahuan tentang sepak terajang dunia kerparat  dan membina jalinan dan lingkungan kenalan dalam industri.

It was not really me in the first place, it still is not after 9 years plus, and looking at the way I feel and think about things, it will never be. I am not the corporate type. I don’t feel the drive to make it to the top of an organisation. I just feel driven to help and contribute in my own way, and I don’t like the way I have to do things now. So sue me but I have had enough. 

It is scary to start planning the way out. Just as it is scary to move to an uncertain unchartered territory. However I remember having an ideal that if you are ikhlas, sincere, Lilllahita’ala, you will be under His Blessings and He will protect you and provide for you in whatever that you are doing.

I have so many things going right for me, and the full support of my beloved ones on my side. I have nothing to lose, really. So I will make 2013 right. My way. InsyaAllah.

And again, I make a pact to write on a daily basis. To sharpen the saw and prepare myself for my next journey. There is no more excuse and no more fear. This is what I am going to do so Lillahita’ala, I will do it. 

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

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